Fast forward six years and I am a completely different person than I ever thought I would be. Before being diagnosed, I never really understood what people with health problems go through. Now, I do and I am more sympathetic and empathetic to those that have chronic illnesses. I know what it feels like to not be able to do all the things you want to do and love.
Tough Choices with Endo
I have chosen not to finish pharmacy school because my body just cannot handle the stress. I did not want to make this decision. My body has already been through so much. I do not want to put it through anything that may cause more harm. This is the only body I have and I want to make the most of it.
Am I mad? Yes! Will I be able to move on? Yes, because I know that there is a great life ahead of me even if it is not what I had initially planned. I was given endometriosis for a reason and I am not going to let it win. I am going to use what I have been through to help others who also suffer with this disease, as well as the other diseases that come along with endometriosis.
With Endometriosis Comes Many Other Diseases
I have been diagnosed with interstitial cystitis, polycystic ovary syndrome, and osteoporosis, in addition to the endometriosis. I had a hysterectomy at the age of 23. I know I can adopt, but that is a very challenging process to go through. This will make having a family difficult, but not impossible. It may seem like I am giving up because I am not pursuing a dream I had, but I am not. When I was fighting for pharmacy school and for my health, I realized that I just did not have it in me to keep fighting for both. I had to choose my health, because if I did not, I felt like my quality of life would be worse than it is now. If I were to continue pharmacy school, I felt like I would not be able to enjoy the experience. So instead, I am using everything in my power to gain awareness for endometriosis. I encourage people to talk about this disease so that one day there will be a cure. I do not want anyone to ever go through the agonizing heartache and pain I have been through.
When I was first diagnosed, I never thought I would be dealing with endometriosis for the rest of my life. I was sure there was a pill that would help end my pain, but sadly, I was mistaken. I continue to pray that I will wake up one day and not be in pain anymore. However, I have come to the realization that I will be in some kind of pain for the rest of my life. I have to find a way to be able to cope with that pain. I know some people do not understand this, but I have become closer with God since all of this has happened. Many people do not like to hear the saying “everything happens for a reason”, but that is what gets me through each day.
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