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Post Gardasil Severe Cyclic Vomiting, Migraines, and a Long List of Other Symptoms

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This is a photo of Stephanie Matthews pre-Gardasil. Below is a photo of her in December 2016, while in the hospital. She is slowly starting to let me calendar her health with photos and writing.

Gardasil, the journey no one should take…

If this story helps just one more girl, this journey will not be in vain.

I will not be able to touch the tip of the iceberg with this story. So much more has happened over these past 4-5 years. It has been a whirlwind and like a whirlwind, and unwelcome event. If you take one thing away from Steph’s story it should be clear as a bell. DO NOT GET THE GARDASIL VACCINE FOR YOURSELF OR YOUR CHILDREN.

Stephanie was 23 years old at the time of her 1st Gardasil vaccine. As most young adults, Stephanie was working, had her own health insurance and took responsibility for her health and medical decisions. Stephanie had been a Type I diabetic since age 10 and knows how important it is to take care of herself. At her regular checkup the doctor said that she needed to get this “NEW” vaccine for the HPV virus. So the journey began.

Steph received her first vaccine in June 2008. The second in October 2008. The night of her second vaccine Stephanie was hospitalized in ICU for an acute respiratory problem and sky rocketing blood sugars.

The 3rd vaccine was given in December 2008.  Early in 2009, Stephanie took a trip to Mexico. On her way back she had uncontrollable vomiting, headaches, body aches and was again hospitalized.

Thinking that she may have picked something up while on her travels to Mexico, we pressed the hospital and doctors to check for parasites and pathogens. All tests came back negative.

She began being hospitalized over and over again with uncontrolled vomiting, headaches and body aches, Test after tests, revealed nothing. Then finally a diagnosis of gastroparesis (delayed gastric emptying), from her diabetes. Her body was also full of yeast. The gastric emptying test came back inconclusive and one of them came back slow.

Here is the clincher, we did not give any thought to the vaccine, because we did not know she had the vaccine. It was not until we started realizing that her symptoms were not conclusive to gastroparesis, that I pressed Stephanie asking what she may have done differently or been exposed to. This is when she said “well, I had a vaccine”. Keep in mind she was an adult and trusting the doctors, she did not think this was relevant. They would not give her something to hurt her, she thought.

Connecting the Dots: It was Gardasil

It would be close to two years before the awakening as to Steph’s “mystery illness would be realized. It was while on my Facebook page a large flashing ad on the left of my screen shouting one more girl, got my attention. I clicked on it and found that several girls had the same symptoms. I had so many questions.

How was this vaccine tested?

What did the package insert say?

Did any other of these girls have already compromised immune systems like Steph with her type I diabetes?

Was it tested on this group of girls?

Why do some get sick but not all and why so many? It is like playing Russian roulette.

Why had other countries already taken the vaccine off the market?

This was just the beginning of the long long journey into the Gardisil nightmare.

Vomiting, Edema, Itching, Hair Loss, Extreme Moods, Jaw Growth, Bone Aches, and More

Since October 2008, Stephanie has been hospitalized over 80 times. She was in for three weeks in Southern California. This time on a purely liquid diet, hooked up to IVs, gaining weight and still vomiting.  She had headaches, disrupted menstrual cycle, large weight gain, itching, hair loss body aches depression, extreme mood changes.

She has had EVERY test over and over again.

Not one doctor that we encountered had yet to look or even consider the vaccine; they have blamed everything from her diabetes, to her being psychologically sick.

The doctors have gone so far as to say that they think we are crazy. Her last doctor in Southern California finally looked at the other girls’ stories and the website SaneVax. He threw his hands up and said, “If this were my mother, daughter, sister or aunt, I would go and get a second opinion.” Keep in mind by this time, Steph has had every blood test, scope, scan and test that was available, all pretty much inconclusive or if one came back positive once, it was not positive again.

They pumped her full of anti-nausea meds, antibiotics, fluids, painkillers, anti-fungal over and over again. Each and every hospital visit we would have to go over the same thing, and each and every time we would get the same treatment. We were always told by the hospitals,

“We don’t fix people here. We just get them well enough to follow up with their primary doctor.”

I could not get them to understand that she is hospitalized so much that by the time she gets out and gets an appointment to her primary doctor, she is sick again and admitted to the hospital. We have had 2nd 3rd and 4th opinions.

These symptoms are brutal. The vomiting is not something that stops on its own, and is accompanied by brutal stomachaches as well. Now you tell me, how does a person who is vomiting more days out of their life, than not, gain weight?

Other symptoms: It is almost like she has gone into menopause, with the hair loss, mood swings, and night sweats, hot flashes. This vaccine disrupts the entire neurological and endocrine system. In addition to the uncontrollable vomiting, her symptoms include: fatigue, fainting, dizziness, severe food allergies, missed menstrual periods, severe cramps, and bartonella rash. Weight gain, uncontrollable blood sugars, light sensitivity and heat sensitivity.

Nine Years Post-Gardasil: Still Sick, Mounting Hospital Bills and No Answers

By October 2010, Stephanie’s Cobra insurance ran out. She was now uninsured, unable to work, she could barely get out of bed, and her hospital bills had mounted to over $2 million dollars. I decided to move her to Northern California, so she would be closer and maybe get fresh start with new doctors. She had already been hospitalized numerous times in Southern California at five different hospitals.

The move north proved to us that the medical field is not willing to accept or take responsibility to go up against the “big Pharma” companies.

Steph spent most of April 2013 in the hospital. We went so far as to have her gallbladder removed, just hoping this would stop her uncontrollable vomiting, wrong again. One doctor actually told us

“So what if it is the vaccine, what are we going to do about it?”

Today, Steph is 31 she is on disability, and on Medicare, but still not one doctor is willing to look further into the fact that the vaccine has caused her symptoms. Her visits to the hospital are coming farther apart.

 

Steph Mathews 8.75 years post Gardasil
Steph Mathews 8.75 years post Gardasil

It seems that there is a series of things that happen before she gets sick. She becomes extremely tired. She will “swell up” get extremely bad migraines and body aches. Then the vomiting will start.  She will vomit with no food in her system and it will be hundreds of times and last for days. This seems to be occur every three months.

Gardasil Victims

Stephanie is not alone, there have been 394 deaths, and 51,522 adverse reactions reported to VAERS. This is only in the United States. Keep in mind; these are only reported reactions, how many other families have sick adult daughters that have not put two and two together? Many other countries are battling the same Gardasil Injuries, Ireland, Mexico, Australia, UK and Japan just to name a few.

Now they are going to be giving it to 12 year-olds in schools and without parental consent if that child wants it. And why in the world would they want 12 year olds to get this vaccine, without having to tell their parents? A 12 year old that became sick from this vaccine without parental knowledge would never be able to connect the two event! And so, the horrible journey in to Gardisil prison would begin.

I just hope that all of our girl’s stories help to get the word out that this vaccine, is a killer! It takes away lives. It makes the medical field and pharmaceutical companies millions, and now it is being said that many of these girls will become sterile. This is now being stated by the American College of Pediatricians. ACPEDS.org

My opinion is that these doctors and hospitals are scared to death to side with an extremely sick young girl, for fear of retaliation against the drug companies and mainly in this case MERCK. Please know that all 3 of my children had their childhood vaccines. I was not anti-vaccine, until this. The Gardasil vaccine “fast tracked” to the mainstream medical and do not have sufficient testing to deem them safe for anyone.

Please do not even consider this vaccine, it has damaged and killed more girls throughout the U. S. and other countries than the disease it was meant to protect against!

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Five Years After Gardasil: Nursing my Mitochondria

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My journey with Gardasil began innocently in Australia. In 2008 after two years of pervasive marketing, I fit right within the 26 years old ‘market segment’. I qualified for a free vaccination. Little did I know what was about to hit me; not once, but three times.

Health and Vaccination History Pre-Gardasil

I was in good health prior to Gardasil; hard working, athletic and traveling extensively. I had all the required vaccines by the French medical authorities for a person from my generation.

Between 2006-2007 corresponding to the beginning of my Master’s degree, I was injected with a number of vaccines that I thought, based on medical advice, were needed to cover international travel: diphtheria, typhoid, yellow fever, hepatitis A and B, the flu vaccine, and a tetanus boost.

Mid-2008, I had my first shot of Gardasil (20/06/2008 GARDASIL SEQUENCE 1, Batch No.K0176). My second shot was in October 2008 (10/10/2008 GARDASIL SEQUENCE 2, Batch No.K2307). The 3rd sequence of Gardasil was injected in February 2009 (05/02/2009 GARDASIL SEQUENCE 3, Batch No.K5754).

Post Gardasil: Severe Hypersomnia, Dizziness, Tremors and Weight Loss

A flu-like episode with high fever lasting over a week occurred following the second vaccine shot. Full-blown hypersomnia first manifested when I fell into a deep sleep for 17 hours straight. Somnolence worsened for several months after the 2nd and 3rd Gardasil shots, until suddenly, and seemingly out of the blue, I was able to be awake for an average of 45 minutes to 3 hours a day.

During that initial phase of the syndrome, lifting a fork to eat, cooking and even walking to the kitchen were all too much effort. I needed to lie down or I would fall asleep on my computer keyboard. As I did not know the difference between tiredness and somnolence, I had difficulty explaining my initial symptoms to my doctors; yawning away through consultations until my post-consultation nap.

I experienced severe dizziness for the first time in what was to become a recurrent manifestation of this syndrome for the next five years. The dizziness intensified to the point of losing balance. I could no longer attend my regular weight-lifting classes: the floor would spin when I would pick up the weights. I tried to fight the lack of balance with my mind-over-matter method. I even managed to drag myself to a gym class during those first days of illness, seeking to force my body back into action. I thought willpower alone could jerk my body back into functioning. It didn’t work. My attempt was met with a record 10 minutes in a BodyPump class, followed by several hours of sleep. After 10 days of this dizziness and somnolence, I asked a friend to drive me to a doctor.

The Parade of Doctors Begins: Untangling the Gardasil Reaction

Doctor #1, my regular GP, said I was fine and just to rest. By then I also had hand tremors as well as dizziness and somnolence. I went to doctor #2, this time at our University Health Center. She ordered blood tests, all of which came back normal. I recall her telling me that I was healthy and that it was ‘all in my head’. Supposedly, the tremors that she could clearly observe were ‘all in my head’. She thought I was faking my symptoms. Within the next six weeks, I went to see doctor #3. Her diagnosis was Chronic Fatigue Syndrome (CFS) because I had – in her terms – ‘burned out my neurons’ through extensive intellectual efforts.

The next five months are a blur. I don’t recall much other than sleeping. I remember falling asleep everywhere instantly. I would fall asleep slumped on my desk or anywhere I sat. I would warn taxi drivers that I might fall asleep in their cab, and ask them to kindly wake me up at destination should this happen. This was in addition to the 10-12 hours per night I would sleep and the several hour naps I had in the morning and in the afternoon every single day.

More Doctors and More Symptoms

I moved from Australia to France and saw doctor #4. Soon, a new symptom began. It was tachycardia (rapid heart rate). My heart would pound furiously and I would be out of breath going up stairs, despite how athletic I had been just a few months before. Doctor #4 exhausted all possible tests and he referred me to an internal medicine specialist at Foch Hospital in France, doctor # 5. He suggested narcolepsy in his referral letter.

By then I had developed intense salt cravings which went hand in hand with the dizziness and tremendous thirst. During ‘waves’ of extreme somnolence, I had noticed that eating salt helped. I would ask for a bag of potato chips, to which I would add a lot of extra salt. Overtime, I figured out that it had to be sea salt otherwise it did not have the same effect on the dizziness or other symptoms. During these episodes I slurred my speech and had trouble speaking. This was often accompanied by major episodes of somnolence. I had noted that any exertion of physical energy was profoundly draining (e.g. walking, standing up, cooking); so too would mental energy demands such as strong emotions, empathy or anger. If became angry, I would fall asleep, as if the energy output required for anger was too much demand on my already drained body.

Since my salt cravings were so intense, doctor #5 suggested a series of tests, including one for adrenal gland tumors. This was July 2010. All the tests came back normal apart from a vitamin D deficiency.

Doctor #5: Narcolepsy without Cataplexy?

Doctor #5 concluded that I had narcolepsy without cataplexy since I had the capacity to sit down before falling asleep, rather than the cataplexy associated with collapsing asleep. He prescribed 300mg/day of Modiodal (Modafinil-Australia; Provigil-US).

The results of the treatment with Modiodal were tremendous. Since this ‘wake-promoting agent’ is used in combat by special forces, it was bound to help me control my somnolence. I was able to get much more done during the day, although I was still extremely somnolent. I began my weight-lifting class again, with better results, but I still needed 2 to 3 hours of sleep after a class and I was still dizzy and had all the other associated, up-to-then unexplainable symptoms.

Oh Wait, not Really – Says Doctor #6

In October 2010, I saw a sleep specialist, doctor #6. She told me:

“I see a lot of women like you. Women in your generation have a lot of pressure professionally and personally. You don’t have narcolepsy. You have psychogenic hypersomnia because you have been through a lot professionally and personally.”

In other words, she was implying that it was all in my head. She suggested that I would recover in about six months and did not run any tests in the sleep lab. She prescribed 400mg of Modiodal a day and told me to resist somnolence during the day to seek to force my body back into a wake-sleep routine. So I tried, although not too successfully. By then I had my nap armchair at work where I would have 10-minute power naps when I was too somnolent and dizzy. The increase in medication helped me resist the daytime somnolence but all of the other symptoms remained and some new ones appeared. I was now very sensitive to sound and light and needed sunglasses even indoors.

Powering Through my Declining Health Post Gardasil

Gradually, it seems that my body adjusted to the higher dose of Modiodal and I developed a tolerance for the dizziness and the somnolence. I enrolled in a Ph.D. program in November 2010. By early 2011 – I was both working full-time and starting a Ph.D. Being highly determined, I thought I would make my body function again, and yes, I was going to do this Ph.D. and to have this full-time job despite whatever tantrum my body was having with its dizziness, somnolence and other symptoms. I kept powering through. I thought the diagnosis of hypersomnia was final.

Another Six Months and Still No Improvement

Six months after doctor #6 told me I would be healed, I was no better. Her explanation for my lack of recovery was my “hectic” lifestyle. She told me, “you work too hard, give it another year, you should be fully resting for 6 full months but I understand you have to work.”

I was not making any progress on the somnolence, the dizziness, the light and noise sensitivity, or the salt cravings and thirst. I could barely hold it together on the physical front to keep up a career and my PHD. I did not have any energy to look more into the medical puzzle I was facing.

During the treatment when Modiodal was working well, doctor #6 tried another medication on me – to replace the Modiodal due to some changes in government funding for this medication which apparently did not qualify anymore for non-narcoleptics. She prescribed 80 mg of Ritalin. By early 2012, this new anti-somnolence medication made me extremely ill, so she changed the prescription back to Modiodal. My weight had plummeted to a low 48kg, despite eating normally.

US Doctors Post Gardasil: Pieces to the Puzzle

From late 2012 to early 2013, I spent six months in the US. I needed to follow-up on the hypersomnia. I met doctor #7 in the US and put him in touch with doctor #6 in France. I told him that I was convinced I was not properly diagnosed. ‘Psychogenic’ hypersomnia sounded like nonsense to me and it was increasingly obvious that we needed to reassess the symptoms. I told him that I was very dizzy most of the time, that light sensitivity had increased to a point of needing sunglasses indoors, that I had salt cravings etc. Also by then I was particularly skinny. I told him that I had discovered that exercise was allowing me to function without dizziness for a few hours, post weight-lifting especially. I started noticing a thick dry scale on my scalp. It was not dandruff and the inflammation – whatever it was – was very painful. Some new diagnoses emerged.

  • Hypothyroid. Doctor #7 in the US identified that I was hypothyroid. The thyroid stimulating hormone (TSH) levels came back high at 7.89 uIU/mL indicating that I was hypothyroid in spite of being skinny. Gaining weight is more common with this thyroid condition. Doctor #7 thought that the hypersomnia was due to the hypothyroidism, and that levothyroxine would fix it all, the hypersomnolence, the dizziness, and the light sensitivity. This was in January 2013. He referred me to a sleep specialist for further testing and a dermatologist for the scalp problem.
  • Low Potassium. I was also found to have low potassium levels although nothing much was thought of it at the time. This was a relevant clue as we shall see later in this post.
  • Vitamin B Deficiency. The dermatologist, doctor #8, tested me for tropical parasites given the countries I had traveled to. All came back normal. She seemed concerned though and suggested a complex of vitamin B supplements because in her experience, deficiencies in certain forms of vitamin B can trigger these sort of dermatological manifestations. I had no time to follow-up with her due to travel, nor to order the vitamins. I was too focused on the dizziness and hypersomnia and newly discovered thyroid problems and could not fathom a link to a vitamin deficiency. In retrospect, with what I now know of thiamin deficiency, I realize she was probably correct.
  • Back to Narcolepsy. The sleep specialist in the US, doctor #9, requested a sleep study because he suspected narcolepsy without cataplexy. He told me that I did not fit into the typical narcoleptic profile. The sleep study was done in February 2013 after 13 days of weaning myself off the Modiodal (yet having started the levothyroxine). By the time I completely weaned myself off the Modiodal for the sleep study, I could not exercise anymore and I was back to falling asleep all the time. In fact the sleep technician had to walk into the test room to wake me up during the day-time part of the sleep study because – as those who have done sleep studies know – you have to stay awake during certain periods of time for the tests to be valid. I was unable to resist the somnolence and was falling asleep uncontrollably on my ‘wake-up’ chair. I had an average of 4.75 minutes in a Multiple Sleep Latency Test (MSLT), indicative of severe somnolence. I communicated the information to doctor #6 in France.

Post Gardasil Idiopathic Hypersomnia, Plus Hypothyroid

Doctor #9, seeing the results of the sleep test, told me it was clearly NOT psychogenic hypersomnia and clearly not Chronic Fatigue Syndrome (CFS). It was not narcolepsy either. He suggested ‘idiopathic’ hypersomnia or ‘vaccine-related’ hypersomnia. I was also shown to have mild sleep apnea. By April 2013 I had abnormally high Reverse T3 levels and Thyroxine (T4) levels despite normal TSH levels. I went back to doctor #7. We agreed to increase the levothyroxine to 100Mcg per day.

Back to France – Finding Support at Monastery

I had to leave the US in April 2013 to defend my PhD in France. Doctor #9, the sleep-specialist in the US, kindly gave me the equivalent of Modiodal samples for 3 months: I could not order more than one month of Modiodal at a time and had no more medical coverage in France. To manage the hypersomnia, I was given instead of 400mg of Modiodal per day, 250mg of Armodafinil a day. So there I was in France, in a new town, actually in a monastery, between April 2013 and August 2013.

Diet and Exercise Clues: Possible Mitochondrial Dysfunction Post Gardasil

By then I had noticed that sugar and other carbohydrates triggered somnolence. Complex carbohydrates did not affect me. This was in addition to the extra sea salt at strategic times to reduce episodes of somnolence. The extra salt induced extreme thirst most of the time. I found that weightlifting would allow me to function without dizziness for about 24 hours, and 15 to 30 minutes of jogging would give me 4-6 hours of functioning without dizziness. In fact, when I felt most dizzy – if I did pushups or lifted weights – I was guaranteed a reduction in dizziness. I communicated this with Dr. Marrs at her website, Hormones Matter. She had found research showing that exercise induced mitochondrial biogenesis. Somehow, my body knew that too, although, at the time I had no idea why it worked.

At one point during my stay at the monastery, my symptoms worsened. I developed what is called “tunnel vision” and the light sensitivity became extreme. I needed to wear my sunglasses most of the time, even indoors. I needed eye drops otherwise my eyes would burn. I felt like I was passing out most of the time. My eye bags were strange. They went down to my jawbones across the cheeks. Noise and conversations would exhaust me. I started eating on my own, not in the commissary with the others. This coincided with the re-emergence of heart palpitations. I was unable to run. Some monks and nuns began asking me if I was eating enough. No matter what or how much I ate, I would not gain wait. I kept losing weight.

This was probably the worst time of the illness. When the dizziness would manifest, I would feel like my energy was being completely drained from my body. If I could put to words the mental image I had when this would happen, it was as if light – I take as representing my energy levels – was leaking or rather shooting upwards from the top middle part of my skull. However delirious this sounds, and I was very ill, somehow I took it as my body telling me through the delirium that there was ‘an energy leak’. That was my inspiration to find a way to heal and my task was to find the biochemical source of this ‘leak’.

Hashimoto’s and Low Gammaglobulin

I went to see doctor #10 in a small village in Southern France. TSH levels had gone down to 0.1 so I had shifted from hypothyroid to hyperthyroid. We found out that I had in fact Hashimoto’s disease in addition to the ‘idiopathic’ hypersomnia. I had hypogammaglobulinemia and low total protein levels. I had lost 7 kilos between February 2013 and June 2013. Here again, Dr. Marrs had written about post Gardasil Hashimoto’s.

Doctor #10 told me to reduce the levothyroxine, and that I should see a blood specialist in hospital due to the hypogammaglobulinemia. The blood specialist was on holiday. Concerned with the way my health was degrading, I called a friend in Paris. Worried, and with the best of intentions, he sought to help me out and called another doctor in Paris for advice. I was subsequently told I had an appointment with doctor #11.

Doctor  #11 was Lecherous

I saw doctor #11 in Paris and he told me that the Gardasil vaccine had no side effects, and that obviously all of my symptoms are in my head. So there, about 4 weeks before defending my Ph.D., an expensive doctor who knew nothing about my health asked that I stop taking the medicine that keeps me awake despite the hypersomnia and gave me a prescription for lithium ‘to help’ me wean myself off the Modiodal. He then proceeded to quiz me on my sex life, alluding to some throwback of female hysteria and repressed sexuality as a diagnosis. He seemed way too tickled by what he imagined was my sex life than in the debilitating health problems I was bringing to the medical consultation. Out of the blue, he asked: ‘do you have any issues climaxing?’. To this day I do not know how to relate his question to my light sensitivity, hypersomnia, salt-cravings, hand tremors, thirst, Hashimoto’s, dizziness and palpitations.

I became concerned when he intimated that, should all results come back negative, and he made sure I knew he thought they would come back negative, that he would prescribe appointments with a retired psychiatrist, a friend of his, to work on my thought patterns. He then calmly alluded to electroshock treatment on patients around my age at a clinic he was working at in Canada decades ago as a very good technique to retrain psychosomatic women. Yes, an expensive doctor who liked at one point in his life to experiment with electroshocks on ill women. As my exit strategy with this strange character, I told him I would indeed stop the Modiodal and go ahead with the lab tests.

I headed straight back to the monastery in Southern France, more perplexed with my health than before traveling. I arrived at the monastery almost destabilized. When I told the Mother Superior about the tone of the appointment, she burst out laughing. Her humor comforted me tremendously.

Doctor #12 – Managing the Hashimoto’s Post Gardasil

The next day, other friends had organized a medical appointment in a hospital in Montpellier, in Southern France, with an endocrinologist, doctor #12. She confirmed Hashimoto’s and asked that my thyroxine dosage be reduced. She referred me to an internist doctor closer to the monastery in another hospital.

Doctor # 13 – Probably Gardasil but You’ll Have to Live with It

Doctor #13 was an oncologist, in-hospital internal medicine. He ran a number of other tests and another MRI for pituitary issues. All came back normal apart from the thyroid function, but we already knew that. At one point he suggested we test for Breimer’s disease, however, the tests showed normal vitamin B12 levels. Tests for Lupus came back negative.

Doctor #13 told me that medicine was not advanced enough to offer me a clear diagnosis. He told me that possibly Gardasil triggered the hypersomnia, but that at this point in time without the exact mechanisms or the source of my syndrome, I’d have to live with the state of ‘no diagnosis’.

Despite my degrading health, somehow I defended and passed my Ph.D. in July 2013. In August 2013, I headed back to Australia.

Treating Post Gardasil Reactions in Australia – Doctors 14, 15 and 16

I needed a sleep specialist in Australia for the treatment of the hypersomnia. I had to get another GP (doctor #14) and sleep specialist in Australia, doctor #15. The sleep specialist was very attentive and made sure I could continue with the anti-somnolence medication. He also suggested we try a CPAP machine due to the minor sleep apnea. He started communicating with doctor #9 in the US. He mentioned that in children, what is considered ‘minor’ sleep apnea can trigger all sorts of health problems. Excessive coughing did not make it possible to continue with the trial test.

Since finding out I had Hashimoto’s in addition to the hypersomnia, and that my blood results were off, I was convinced of the need to refine the diagnosis. It was time to change tactics.

I went back to doctor #14, my new GP in Australia and shared my concerns. I also requested a referral to an endocrinologist to manage the thyroid disease I now have. She organized a referral to an endocrinologist, doctor #16. The endocrinologist was oblivious to the set of symptoms that accompanied Hashimoto’s. In only two visits, she managed to stabilize my TSH levels with 93.25 Mcg Eutroxsig per day and that was it. She did not want to see me for another year – to her the entity she was treating was Hashimoto’s and was unrelated to the other set of symptoms. She suggested yoga to reduce salt-cravings and light sensitivity; thereby implying these other symptoms were unrelated to an underlying medical condition.

I went back to doctor #14. My thirst and salt cravings, my light and noise sensitivity were so bad. I was exercising with military discipline to fight the dizziness, to counter what I now understand to probably be mitochondrial injury. I asked doctor #14 to run a number of tests and also to find an immunologist for me. The sleep specialist, doctor #15 in Australia, supported my consulting an immunologist because of my difficulties fighting infections and also low IgA, Hashimoto’s etc. Doctor #14 listened to him and while organizing an appointment with the immunologist he suggested, she also sent me to see a General Physician, doctor #18. Doctor #18 was more interested to know whether or not I had had breast augmentation ‘due to their shape’ than in my actual health concerns. He was an Australian version of French doctor #11. Needless to say, I never went back.

Meanwhile, I had learned through the Hormones Matter website, thanks to Dr. Chandler Marrs’ work, Dr. Derrick Lonsdale’s expertise, and a courageous mother, that four patients with unusual symptoms post-Gardasil (3 girls and a boy) had been tested and found to be thiamine (thiamin) deficient, using the erythrocyte transketolase test. Beriberi was at the core of their symptoms, and for whom doctors were able to do nothing prior to that diagnosis.

I tried to get the correct test for this deficiency. This was in September 2013. After six weeks of emails to three doctors (two in-hospital specialists and doctor #14), explaining the different types of thiamine testing, I realized I was getting nowhere. I learned then that doctor #14, was under pressure by the boss of her practice to stop ordering tests for me. Even though I am not depressed, she offered anti-depressants. I decided not to return. I went on a hunt for another GP to replace doctor #14. The new GP, doctor #19 ran a number of tests linked to nutrient absorption issues. All were normal.

Finally, an Ally – Doctor #17

In October 2013, my total protein levels were still low, IgA was low and I had very low vitamin D. Antithyroid peroxidase (TPO) was high. I had low potassium levels again (3.1mmol/L), which was consistent with the low potassium levels noted months earlier. (I now understand that this is typical of thiamine deficiency, or Beriberi). I also had a consistently low white cell count measured in France and in Australia.

Thanks to doctor #15, I met doctor #17, an Australian in-hospital immunologist who ordered another series of tests. He was interested in Derrick Lonsdale’s articles on the post Gardasil thiamine deficiency. Thanks to Dr. Marrs’ encouragement, they wrote to each other. We tried to get the thiamine deficiency test done in Australia. It was impossible to locate one lab that could do the correct testing. In September 2013 and October 2013, whole blood B1 levels were normal, at 143nmol/L (lab range: 66-200) and at 65ug/L (lab range: 28-85). Yet what needed to be tested was the activity of thiamine. Dr. Derrick Lonsdale makes it exceedingly clear that measuring transketolase is the only way to show that the activity of thiamine is normal. Transketolase requires two cofactors, thiamine and magnesium. The erythrocyte transketolase test is designed to show their deficiency or abnormal chemistry by detecting the activity of the enzyme.

While I was in a Southeast Asian country in November 2013, I tried again to get the erythrocyte transketolase test done. No luck. I tried getting the test in Japan through doctor #20, a researcher who was contacted for me in Japan. Beriberi is more common in Japan – I thought – they had to have labs for this, right? I asked the Japanese through a researcher in France, doctor #21. He tried six labs in Japan. No luck.

By late November 2013, after repeated failed attempts to get the transketolase test and my continued worsening health, Doctor #17, the immunologist, and I decided we would just try the thiamine replacement treatment with TTFD suggested by Derrick Lonsdale.  Dr. Lonsdale tells me that TTFD stands for thiamine tetrahydrofurfuryl disulfide. It is the synthetic equivalent of allithiamine, the naturally occurring disulfide derivative of vitamin B1(thiamine) in garlic. Clinical, animal experiments and biochemical research all have shown that it has therapeutic properties far beyond those of simple thiamine replacement.

Please do not try this alone without a doctor’s supervision as there can be dangerous paradoxical reactions.

Thiamine Replacement Treatment – Surviving the Paradoxical Reactions

I started in November with 100mg / day of TTFD. After 5 days I decreased the dose to 50mg / day. I had been warned by Dr. Lonsdale of the initial worsening of symptoms that he calls ‘paradox’. So I knew that my symptoms might get worse before they got better. I had no idea how severe that paradoxical reaction would be!

I want to explain this thing that Dr. Lonsdale calls ‘paradox’. He explained it to me as follows:

Unfortunately, we disregard history and the struggles that researchers went through in order to define the cause of the vitamin deficiency disease, beriberi. These are simply lost to the awareness of the modern physician. It was well known, when this disease was common, that the dangerous time of initiating treatment was directly proportional to the severity of the disease and how long it had been in existence. Under no accounts whatever should POTS be treated with TTFD without the care of a knowledgeable physician.

The initial phase of TTFD intake landed me four times in hospital emergency with extreme dizziness and heart palpitations over a period of five weeks. On one occasion, I was in two different hospitals in one day with chest pains and palpitations and very severe dizziness. On another instance, the gym called in an ambulance when my heart rate would not go down and I was extremely dizzy and incoherent. I recall blurting out to some petrified gym staff that I needed to have my ‘heart pulse’ monitored when in fact I meant heart rate.

In ER visits, I met resident doctors #22 and #23. One wanted me to see a neurologist and an endocrinologist. Her letter: ‘Presents L sided chest pain – sharp pinching pain…objectively in emergency. No criteria for admission @ present… would benefit from a review by both neurologist and endocrinologist’. One other resident in another hospital wanted me to see a cardiologist: ‘intermittent palpitations… thank you for seeing this patient for consideration of halter monitor’. Both were baffled by my symptoms. Dr. Lonsdale explained that this was a normal and expected temporary effect. My last ER visit was early December 2013.

Are the Post Gardasil Illnesses Related to Thiamine Deficiency?

Dr. Lonsdale’s work shows a connection between thiamine deficiency and dysautonomia. Thiamine deficiency Beriberi is actually a prototype for dysautonomia in its early stages because it affects the hypothalamic/autonomic/endocrine axis. I am inclined to agree, given my recent experience. Whether I was thiamine deficient prior to the vaccine or not, is now impossible to determine. What has become clear is that post Gardasil vaccine, my body went into a tailspin, for which no prior diagnosis or offered treatment worked.

I now understand that the symptoms of my condition are indicative of three forms of dysautonomia, all of which appear to have been induced by thiamine deficiency: the postural and orthostatic components of POTS were indicated by dizziness and fainting upon standing up. Cerebral Salt Wasting Syndrome was indicated by the intense salt cravings and Beriberi was confirmed with my positive reaction to thiamine treatment. The hypersomnia, since it has improved, appears to be caused by thiamine deficiency as well. Hashimoto’s disease, to which I have a genetic predisposition, was part of the mess and I have since learned that it is very common post medication or vaccine. It is of course possible, according to Dr. Lonsdale, that a latent, asymptomatic thiamine deficiency was triggered into clinical significance by the Gardasil vaccination.

Healing Post Gardasil

Since the ‘paradox’ passed early December 2013, with the TTFD treatment, I have had more energy than I have had in five years. The constant dizziness is gone. My extreme salt cravings are gone. My skin has improved. Light and noise sensitivity both have diminished. I have been able to put on weight. I do not need sunglasses when driving at night or earplugs in noisy environments anymore.

Going forward, I am giving my body what it needs to heal. Gradually, we are titrating my hypersomnia medications downward while providing my body with critical nutrients to feed the mitochondria. Currently – in addition to crucial daily exercise – my strategy is the following per day:

  • Early morning: probiotics; 200mg Modiodal; 93.25 thyroxine
  • Mid-morning: 50mg TTFD (Allithiamine, Ecological Formulas); 150mg Magnesium (works with TTFD); 1000 iu vit D3 (to counter vit D deficiency)
  • Lunch: 200mg or 175mg Modiodal
  • Mid-afternoon: 500mg Acetyl L-Carnitine; 150mg Co-Enzyme Q10
  • Night: 66mg TTFD, 1000µg B12, 66mg B6, 69mg vit.E, 66mg dl-α-as tocopheryl succinate, 20mg pantothenic acid calcium, 6.6mg γ-Oryzanol (2 pills of EX-PLUS Alinamin, Takeda Pharmaceuticals)

Note that initially between November 2013 and February 2014, I was on only 50mg of TTFD and 150mg of magnesium, plus a multivitamin. Now beyond the paradoxical phase,  with the TTFD supplements my energy levels have soared. I decided to gradually increase the TTFD to 83mg. I am now at 116mg. Since my ailment seems to point to the mitochondria, I decided early March 2014 to add Acetyl L-Carnitine and Co-enzyme Q10. I also added probiotics to counter damage from ongoing medication. I now seek to decrease the Modiodal levels, gradually.

Post Script: I Was Given the Key to my Health at the Monastery

During the worst of my illness, a key was given to me in the form of both a pair and a trio. The trio was Dr. Chandler Marrs, Dr. Derrick Lonsdale, and the mother of Gardasil-injured patient. And the trio was paired with a context conducive to finding answers. Let me explain what I mean by the context.

I was in the last leg of my Ph.D. in France. During this challenging time physically, mentally and intellectually, but also financially, I was offered refuge in a monastery. My health was severely degrading. It was in this context of prayer, under the protection of this religious community while finishing my Ph.D. dissertation and preparing my Ph.D. defense, with a fantastic Wi-Fi connection at the monastery, that I began searching furiously for answers.

I needed to understand this complex biochemical mess that was manifesting in my body. What doctors were consistently discarding could not be this complicated to understand. The symptoms of this syndrome were not psychogenic: they did not occur in a chemical vacuum. Yet my doctors were baffled. And they were discarding my symptoms as an unsolvable mystery in not just one country, but in three countries: Australia, France and the United States.

Research on adverse reactions to Gardasil, as presented on Hormones Matter changed my perspective of this illness. A growing body of evidence seemed to indicate a link between Gardasil and a set of side effects ranging from Postural Hypotension Tachycardia Syndrome (POTS) to cerebellar ataxia, autoimmune disease and debilitating somnolence.

After countless GPs, I was referred to three in-hospital specialists to treat multiple conditions: a sleep specialist, an endocrinologist and an immunologist.

It turns out that the Gardasil vaccine-induced hypersomnia and vaccine-triggered Hashimoto’s was just the tip of the iceberg. I also had Cerebral Salt Wasting Syndrome, Postural Orthostatic Tachycardia Syndrome and Beriberi, all forms of dysautonomia, all potentially related to thiamine deficiency. None of this was detected or even considered by the physicians I sought help from, barring the dermatologist doctor #8 who mentioned the B vitamins as potentially involved in my illness. Even if the doctors had considered thiamine deficiency, testing in commercial labs was insufficient to detect it, leaving patients like me to fend for ourselves.

Through Hormones Matter, Dr. Chandler Marrs’ research and writing has helped me to connect the dots for my post Gardasil ordeal. Along with Dr. Derrick Lonsdale’s work showing the array of symptoms caused by thiamine deficiency, I now have a more accurate diagnosis and the treatment needed to heal. Together, Dr. Lonsdale’s research and Dr. Marrs’ articles on mitochondrial injury, are the closest I have come to a well-rounded explanation for the complex range of symptoms that I experienced over the last five years. Their work is giving me and my physicians treatment options that were otherwise unknown.

A few days ago, I discovered the work of Dr. François-Jérôme Authier and Dr. Romain K. Gherardi. Their work unveils even more of the complex chemical interactions at the core of this multifaceted syndrome.

What I Learned

Complex diseases sometimes have simple solutions, but to get there requires communication and collaboration amongst patients, doctors and researchers. My illness crossed medical boundaries requiring a multidisciplinary approach. There were no immediately knowable diagnoses, no medications that could effectively treat what was ailing me and, because of which, many physicians disregarded my symptoms as unsolvable, and the worst of them – thankfully a limited number – attributed my illness to psychogenic manifestations. If it were not for the online publication Hormones Matter, where patients, researchers and physicians work to find solutions to complex diseases and reactions, I would not be writing this post. I would be too ill.

A Note of Gratitude

I am profoundly grateful to the eclectic, geographically dispersed medical team which has helped me make sense of my ordeal. I am particularly grateful to Dr. Chandler Marrs for her out-of-the-ordinary patience and dedication to research and understanding adverse reactions, for making sure patients with complex diseases are heard. I am very grateful to Dr. Derrick Lonsdale for both his wisdom and his generosity in sharing, at 88 years old, his depth of knowledge on thiamine. May this knowledge be put to good use. His research legacy is a powerful one. I am grateful to Doctor #15 for being attentive and considering the possibility of a link between thiamine deficiency and some sleep disorders; to Doctor #17 for being willing to listen to a patient and to try the TTFD treatment; and to Doctor #21 for activating medical research networks both in Japan and France to seek to help me out. I am making sure that Doctors #15 in Australia and #9 in the US are in touch regarding the impact TTFD has had on the hypersomnia in my case.

Post Gardasil Dysautonomia: Nina’s Story

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Our story begins in late May of 2007. I took my daughter Nina to the pediatrician for her 12 year old checkup. During the visit the doctor proposed that I have Nina receive the first vaccine of Gardasil. I immediately told him that I was not well informed about this new vaccine. He reassured me that it was fine and better to get it while she was young. I trusted my doctor. As we left the office, I had this strange feeling come over me. I started to question myself about my decision to allow the doctor to administer a vaccine that was new to the industry. My daughter was 12 years old and what was the rush to protect her against a sexually transmitted disease?  Maybe it was mother’s intuition, but I suddenly felt sick to my stomach.

The Early Signs of Illness Post Gardasil

In early July, Nina started complaining of her hair falling out. Nina is beautiful Italian with long thick brown hair. As a mother of three, and Nina being the youngest, I often play down any medical concerns of my children until I see a true problem. I put her to ease by telling her that with her amount of hair it is common to see more of it in the shower or on the bathroom floor.

Over the next few weeks Nina started to complain of flu like symptoms. She would wake up very fatigued and nauseous. The symptoms were intermittent, but becoming more regular as the weeks passed. I did start to notice an abundance of her hair on the bathroom floor. I was becoming concerned. By August, her complaints were becoming more severe. I took her to the local Med Express and they told me she was very dehydrated and they administered IV fluids. Nina felt great and I felt relief.

The next morning, the symptoms returned. She missed the first week of the new school year. The next week I started driving her to school because she was too sick to get on the bus. The school was only five minutes away but by the time we got there she was already too sick to get out of the car. My first thoughts were maybe she was having some type of anxiety about her seventh grade. It did not make sense to me. Nina was a very active child who was always laughing and playing with friends. Her relentless love of basketball always kept her on the go. She played on three different teams.

A Mother’s Intuition

She tried to muddle her way through the first semester of school, but was losing the battle. She was becoming ill at all times of the day. She would sleep on the bathroom floor hoping not to vomit one more time. I made repeated visits to the pediatrician’s office and pleaded with them to help our child. Thoughts were running through my head as to why she became ill so suddenly. Then I remembered my mother’s intuition moment and realized our world began to change after the Gardasil vaccine. The pediatrician was in agreement that we would not proceed with the second dose of the vaccine due to Nina’s illness.

Searching for Help

The next year was filled with illness, doctor’s appointments, diagnostic tests, multiple medications, multiple diagnoses, and many, many disappointments. We were told she was suffering from, Vestibular hypo function, Meniere’s disease, tonsillitis, and last but not least, a mental illness.

My husband and I were baffled. No matter what medicine the doctor’s prescribed for our daughter, her illness continued to invade her body and turn our worlds upside down.  We finally caved in and took her to see a psychologist. The psychologist commended Nina for dealing with this confusing illness in such an adult manner. She reassured us that Nina seemed well adjusted and saw no reason for any type of treatment. How could our healthy child who played basketball 24/7 and aspired to play basketball in college dwindle down to a chronically sick child who was now on home bound study with no social life?  Most of her friends drifted away as her illness seemed invisible to them, as there was no visible signs such a blood spouting from an artery.

We then decided that the traditional medical community was not helping so we decided to try a naturopathic route. We were told it was coming form an adrenal problem and were given vitamins, detoxifying foot baths, and massage therapy know as Reiki. All were complementary, but did not give her any long term relief.

Time marched on and in April of 2009 we stumbled across the television show Mystery Diagnosis. This particular episode was describing Nina exactly. This was the first time I had ever heard the word dysautonomia. I immediately went to the internet to research this illness. I found no specialists in the Pittsburgh area. I began calling every specialist within the United States and faxed all of Nina’s medical information to their offices. We took the first available appointment from the first specialist to return our call.

Finally a Diagnosis: Dysautonomia

Nina was finally diagnosed with dysautonomia by Dr. Hassan Abdallah at The Children’s Heart Institute in Reston, Virginia.  As sad as it may sound, we were delighted to finally have a name for her illness. The pieces of the puzzle were starting to come together. Dr. Abdallah started her on blood pressure medication, followed by a vasoconstrictor medicine, followed by a medicine used for people with Attention Deficit Disorder. These medicines all help push more blood to the heart and brain, thus making her illness less violent. Typically, people with dysautonomia do not perform well in the morning.  It takes hours for their bodies to function and begin their day.  Even though we had a diagnosis for Nina, we still could not get her back to functioning like a teenager. We continued our battle by getting a second and third opinion from The Cleveland Clinic and Case Western Medical Center.  It was at Case Western that a doctor finally admitted that they had seen an increase in dysautonomia since the Gardasil vaccine was introduced.

She also takes melatonin to sleep at night. She constantly has issues with low Vitamin D which requires a prescription dose of the vitamin periodically. She takes an anti-nausea medicine as needed. She has recently been diagnosed with PCOS (Polycystic Ovary Syndrome) and insulin resistance. She combats all this by pushing herself to exercise with a trainer who specializes in strength and heart rate monitoring.

I have researched Gardasil and the facts against it are astounding.

  • Why would the FDA place a vaccine on their fast tract program (which means it only requires six months of research) if this vaccine was being administered to little girls?
  • Why are there over 2000 class action lawsuits against the manufacturers because of debilitating side effects and even death?
  • Why do the manufacturers constantly ignore the facts of websites such as Truthaboutgardasil.org?
  • Do they really think that all these people are just complainers and really don’t want to have a normal life?

We are currently seeking information about a new procedure called Transvascular Autonomic Modulation. It is an invasive procedure where they feed a catheter through the jugular vein and stretch the nerve fibers near the vagal nerve. This is said to reset the autonomic nervous system, thus giving patients relief of symptoms. It does have a 75% success rate. It is only performed by an interventional radiologist in California.

Six Years Post Gardasil

Nina was on the home bound program for high school. She never got to play on her high school basketball team. She never got to attend any proms. Regardless of the adversity she faces, she managed to graduate with a 4.0 GPA. She now attends the University of Pittsburgh at Greensburg as a full time student. She struggles through each and every day with the perseverance of a soldier. Her strength and relentless integrity to live her dreams inspires everyone who has the pleasure of knowing her. The light at the end of the tunnel is that most people with dysautonomia will out-grow it. The doctors agree that Nina’s case is severe and it may be much longer before she gets relief from most symptoms.

Lessons Learned From Gardasil

Gardasil has taught us some valuable lessons. First, never think your doctor knows everything. They are human. They work for you. If you have questions, never stop asking until you are satisfied. Always trust your gut feelings or mother’s intuition. We are better people because of this illness. We no longer take life for granted. Our days of long hours at the gym watching basketball games and striving for the most points and the biggest scholarship have been traded in for a day of no pain or a friend who cared enough to spend some time doing nothing with Nina just because she is a fun person when her symptoms simmer down. Never judge a person with an invisible illness. Everybody carries some type of a burden in their life. Lastly and most important, we trust God has a plan and we will continue the battle until his will we be done.

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Five Years After Gardasil

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My name is Ashley Adair and I am suffering the side effects of something I thought would help me.  I received the Gardasil vaccine because the people and doctors all around me kept telling me “OH! This vaccine is the best thing to happen to the medical industry!” Of course my mom and I fell for it like many girls have. I want to let people know about the dark side of the Gardasil vaccine.

My Life Before Gardasil

Before the HPV Vaccine, I was the most energetic child. I went to school for 8 hours, then went to 3 hours of gymnastics practice, finishing with homework at night. My weekends were filled with gymnastics meets. After gymnastics I went straight into competition cheerleading, which were the same hours. I basically lived in the gym and loved every second of it. I was blessed. Overall I was a healthy child.

After the First Gardasil Injection

I received my first injection in April, 2008. My injection did hurt more than a normal injection. I had mild soreness and redness after. At the time, I didn’t recognize the symptoms I was having. I had slight fatigue, and I would occasionally have a very sore throat. I could not stick my tongue out and I just threw it off as an allergic reaction to chlorine because I was swimming a lot.

After the Second Gardasil Injection

The nightmare began in June, 2008. I received the second shot and I noticed it hurt a bit more than the first. I almost cried a bit, which is very much unlike me. I got a little lightheaded at the checkout line. After 30 minutes, I was fine. The very next night I told my mom I was very sick. I was crying in pain with my pelvis and legs absolutely killing me. I was running a fever and I was very nauseous. So like any parent would, she took me to the emergency room. Of course, the doctors only listen to one symptom and told me I had a stomach virus and that they couldn’t do anything for me. They sent me home.

The next day I was so exhausted and slept till about 3 o’clock. My mom came home from work.  I went outside and noticed I had some kind of rash all over my body. It looked like someone took a fine point purple permanent marker and dotted it all over me. My mom immediately took me to my regular pediatrician and he could not figure out what was on me. He ran a lot of blood work and we went home until we could receive the blood work news. My mom received a phone call around 9 o’clock; one of the scariest phone calls she has ever received. My doctor told her I needed to get back to the ER ASAP. He told her that my blood work was CRITICAL, and the rash on me was called a petechial rash.

Petechiae rashMy red blood cells and white blood cells were completely wiped out. They told me if I were to do a handstand my gums would start bleeding and I would bleed to death. If I caught a common cold my body would not be able to fight it off and I would die. Over the next six weeks I went through so many different rashes, EXTREME fatigue, joint pains, leg pains, shoulder pains, dizziness, and low blood pressure. I finally went to an infectious disease specialist and he told me not to get the third shot or I wouldn’t be here.

I finally started getting better. At the age of 15 I still had not received my menstrual cycle. I went to an OBGYN and he put me on birth control to start my period. That should have been a sign then but we didn’t think about it. I never gained my energy back. My senior year things started acting up again. I got a hemangioma on my lip.

This was very strange because it is mostly babies that will get a hemangioma, not adults. After that happened, I started getting very sick. I missed weeks of school at a time. I kept getting severe bronchitis and I just couldn’t shake it off. I also had to go to the doctor because I was very depressed. I was then put on Zoloft. Luckily my teachers worked with me and I graduated with A’s and B’s.

Ashley Adair Hemangioma post Gardasil
The hemangioma that developed on my lip.

Five Years Post Gardasil

Over the five years after I received the shot I always slept, never had energy, and kept getting what I thought was growing pains. In June of 2012 my growing pains were getting worse in my knees/legs. So my mom took me to the doctor and they couldn’t really figure out what was wrong. They put me in a knee brace and gave me medicine and sent me off. I also just did not feel good at all and my doctor ran some more blood work on me. We then found out I had hypothyroidism, I am now on medicine for that.

From June 2012 until now (August 2013), I face every day with severe pain. My pain is in my lower back, pelvic, hips, back of leg, and knee. I had eight epidurals for the pain. Nothing worked. My legs will also turn a dark purple almost black and it will travel all the way down to my feet.  No one seems to know what causes this.

Ashley Adair post Gardasil blood pooling
My leg turning purple.

I had an MRI for my back and found out that I am missing an ovary and have a mass on my uterus. Of course, when I went to the OBGYN for it, he did a sonogram and could find neither the mass nor my ovary. He threw me off like it was no big deal. I am now lost on whether I have an ovary or a mass.

I have discovered in this situation that doctors really will not try to help you. They just don’t believe you or throw you off to another doctor if they can’t figure it out. I also have lost family members because of this problem. Not everyone will believe you or know what you are going through, but I am here to get my word out so no girl or boy will have to go through the misery that I am going through. I want to create something good out of something terrible.

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A Day in the Life of Alexis Wolf: Six Years After Gardasil

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Alexis is now 20 years old. Six years have passed since her first injection of Gardasil. Life has changed drastically since then. After the Gardasil vaccine, Alexis developed encephalopathy, Traumatic Brain Injury (TBI) and a horrible seizure disorder that has yet to be controlled. Read the first part of Alexis’ Gardasil journey here.

Post Gardasil Brain Injury

Alexis’ brain injury post Gardasil is in the frontal lobe. This part of the brain controls so much of who we are. This has left Alexis with the mental capacity of about an 8 year old. She gets very confused easily and struggles with short term and long term memory so she requires constant supervision with frequent redirection on everyday tasks. Her skill level of preparing meals for herself and daily personal hygiene is almost nonexistent. She can no longer take showers due to the danger of having a seizure and falling. I have to help her take a bath and make sure she gets clean. I have to assist in washing her hair to make sure it gets clean. I also have to get her clothes ready for her. She can usually dress herself with little assistance.

Post Gardasil Bowel and Bladder Problems

Since receiving Gardasil, Alexis progressively lost bladder and bowel control.  She has to wear adult diapers.  Sometimes she will put her fingers inside her anus to try to help herself go #2. Although we have discussed this with all of her doctors and with her, telling her it is very dangerous for her and everyone one else, she cannot control herself. We make her wash her hands OFTEN. I wipe things down with Lysol wipes OFTEN.

Post Gardasil Pain

Alexis has often expressed frustration, depression and suicidal thoughts as to her present life and her future. She can be swift to anger and have great mood swings. She will slam doors, throw things, spit at us and call us a variety of cuss words. She is miserable most of the time. She complains about pain constantly. We have been turned away by three different pain specialist because they review her records and tell me she is “too complex” for them to treat. The only thing she has to help her with the pain is medical marijuana in the form of tinctures and vapors. When her head hurts really badly she will hit her forehead with the palm of her hand and say “brain get better, brain get better…” She also complains about all over body aches, sharp pains in her chest, joint and muscle pain. She will tell us that everything looks scary, strange and unusual even herself. The best description she was able to give us was that it looked like the walls were melting and people looked like cartoons. I had to take her out of high school for the above reasons. Her teachers were not very patient with her and they would push her buttons so one day she hit one of her teachers in the arm. The school called the police so I took her out of school.

Post Gardasil Seizures

Alexis’ speech patterns can often digress to repetitive statements over and over. This occurs without the knowledge that she is engaged in that behavior. Her motivation level is very low due to her brain injury. Getting her to do anything is quite the struggle. Almost every task is labored and takes lots of patience from the person helping her. Often at times she will flat out refuse to move and begs to take a nap. She naps off and on all day every day. We really do not know how long she sleeps at night but we think it is no longer than two hours at a time. The seizures happen all the time and they wake her up while she is sleeping. She is usually unable to fall back to sleep, so she wanders the house and searches for food. She has horrible impulse control and she is not able to tell if she is full or not. We have to keep the fridge and the pantry locked up at all times so she does not eat herself into a coma. If she eats a full meal and then has a seizure she will forget that she has just eaten and she begs for food saying that she is starving. We also lock up her medications because she will forget that she has taken them and try to take more even though I store them in those daily dose medicine boxes. She can have many, many seizures in a day. She takes anti-seizure meds and she also has a device implanted in her chest called a VNS therapy. It is supposed to reduce or stop her seizures but so far we have not really noticed a difference. She has had it for 3 years and soon she will be due for a battery replacement that will require another surgery. The battery should have lasted 5-10 years but the doctors have made so many adjustments on the therapy levels that the battery only has a few months left of power.

Alexis having a Seizure in 2010

Six Years and Counting

In the past six years we have had to deal with many people who do not understand the side-effects of the Gardasil vaccine. We have been accused of horrible things. We have had to endure being investigated by Child Protective Services, Adult Protective Services, police, detectives and more. Family, friends and neighbors have turned their heads and left us behind. Alexis’ father has not spoken to her in two years and all the help he had once offered is nonexistent. The government services that should support Alexis and her brain injury are bogged down so she is on a waiting list of over 40,000 people. I was told she MIGHT get services in 2019 when her name comes up next on the list. The way things have been going it is possible that all money and services may dry up and go away before her name even comes up.

Alexis’ inability to live independently will require lifelong care and assistance. I worry all the time about what will happen to her when I am no longer able to care for her. Every day new challenges arise so I can never put down my guard. I have been told by at least two doctors that I should look into some sort of institutional assisted living facility, but I cannot wrap my mind around that just yet. Life is quite different than it was six years ago, before Gardasil. Six years ago Alexis was a normal 14 year old. Starting to wear make-up and get interested in boys…working hard in school and enjoying honor roll. She had her whole life ahead of her and now she spends every day in a living hell filled with pain and misery, begging to be better, begging everyone to pray for her.

Six years ago, before Gardasil, life was very different.

Alexis Wolf before Gardasil
Alexis Wolf, age 14, before her first Gardasil injection.

 

Alexis Wolf after Gardasil
Alexis Wolf, age 20, six years after Gardasil.

 

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